FlamingLavender's Xanga

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 23:17:45 GMT

this site is no longer occupied.

i'd like to leave with a passage from the book "Gearing Up" by Patrick Combs, Chapter 4 (Struggles & Secrets):

The Butterfly
A butterfly struggles and struggles to emerge from its cocoon through a tiny hole. It struggles for hours and hours forcing its body through a pin-sized hole. If the butterfly can think surely it thinks that the sutrlgge is nothing but hardship. Maybe out of kind,ess if you found the cocoon and saw the butterfly struggling to get out, you';d want to use scissors to open the cocoon for it. if you did so the buttefly would emerge quicker. You might wait for the swollen body to contact and the shriveled wings to enlarge, but it would never happen. The butterfly would never fly. It would be doomed to crawl because the struggle requiored for the butterfly to get through the tiny opening was life's way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly to its wings so that it would beready for flight once it got out of the cocoon. Struggles are exactly ewhat we need in our life from time to time. They make us into who're we're meant to be and they enable us to fly.

Alryt. dats all. x3 see u guys 'round.

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 13:32:34 GMT

what the freak?? Why is my porfile pic shruken????? w/e life sucks, so do you. well...except you. ;) I LOVE YOU. (ps.... see the porfile pic??? it's so GORGEOUS. My VERY TALENTED, AMAZING Amista made it!

Monday, November 01, 2004

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 20:47:17 GMT

I believe it is safe for me to say that the curtains draw to a close at last on my saga.

Sunday, October 17, 2004

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 21:54:28 GMT

QUIZ TIME
with thanks to Quizilla

Your beauty is all your own! You don't like to be
the same as everyone else and find that being
unique makes you more attractive. The normal
trends just don't fit you and things are just
more fun when they're upside down. You love to
be the one that turns heads with individuality
and spunkiness. You're kind of beauty, I would
say, could be characterized by your confidence.
Though it's not a physical trait, it
deffinately shows on you. Rock on! (If you can't
see the pics, go to my homepage and look near
the bottom and find your result)

What kind of Beauty should you have? (girl) (PICS)

You are green. Perhaps one of the most balanced of
all the colors. By balanced, I mean balanced
in both bad and good parts. Let me elaborate:
You're a natural, and somewhat superficial
person. You're extremely generous, but, to add
to the confusion, you're frugal and stingy.
You're a forgiving, but jealous person. You're
imaginative, but still logical. At sometimes,
you're a complete neat-freak, and other times,
you're a total slob. You're very stable, but
undependable. But onto the other traits that
are associated with this color... You're a
stubborn person, simply put. Do you believe in
Feng Shui? Green is closely related to the
thought of having a balanced environment, you
know. When in a bad situation, you're
painfully pessimistic, and when you're in a
good situation, you're extremely optimistic. A
fairly outgoing and amused person, you enjoy
talking to people, and hearing their thoughts
on different things. As a plus, when people
hang around you, it seems like time passes by
all the more quickly.

What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!) You are lonely love. You cannot seem to find a
companion that would suit you. You long for
something more. Keep waiting, you just might
find them. :)

You came from the sky. Your a daydreamer and prefer
to have a good look on situations.

Where did you come from?

Friday, October 15, 2004

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 03:28:41 GMT

This msg is for my lovely dongseng...if you don't get ure beauty rest...I'mma start posting up all ure pix...from childhood to now...one by one...SO... it's past midnight...GO TO SLEEEP DAMMIT!!!

Sunday, October 10, 2004

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 01:57:19 GMT

We must all live with the choice we make. The most to do is to make the best of it.
Life goes on. As much as we hate it.. it continues. What Fate awaits us next? I fear to know.
Silence in the house. If only life could be this simple. Everyone is peaceful sleeping. Where are those dmanded sheeps when you need them??

Sunday, October 03, 2004

Sun, 03 Oct 2004 02:25:52 GMT
Okay, for those of you who were involved in the drama..(the saga, I believe, is still continuing...) I just wanted to say thanks a whole bunch and....urm...at leats it brought excitement? Anywayz...wudnt have made it thru alive w/o ure supports....now...for special individuals, I have some special messages, ready?

apologies go out to...
Ben.: The most pained victim*sigh* what to say? how to start? =/ All I really can say has been said and not surprisingly...it's getting old...even for the both of us. Well, here is it once more coming at you: sorry. Explanation will be explained to u in privacy...yes, ure finally getting an explanation. Ure such a sweet guy...with a wonderful voice and talents like anything....I'm sorry for screwing everything up...especially at the last minute...at the last year...you shud understand what I'm saying, right? Well...I'm sorry...I need to move back and see the forest. I don't like leaves now...=( I'm tempted to call right now, but I'm afraid it might be a bit late...y' know? I hope we can be friends. I truely do.
Tee.: Tee...Tee...Teee, theere you were again...caught admist another one of my issues. =) lol...arentcha glad u met me? =) Well...I justw anted to say sorry to bringing you in and keepin you in. You have enough things to worry about on your own. I'm sorry for bringing more porblems and things to worry you. Also thanks too...but hanging on and not letting go. So...Makino... I now allow you to return to your world to find your own sweet lil drama...sweet being the keyword. "Shan Cai" apologizes for stealing you out of your world and delaying everything. And sorry for being wishy-washy and just unlike myself. And thanks for keeping me & Ben from slaughtering each other...=) lol...jk
Vball Team.: really sorry for confusing everyone and screwing everyone's head up. =/ I can't say much and I can't undo what's been done....all I can say is that...I'm sorry to giving you guys headaches...especially Doris...=(

gratitudes go out to...
Britt.: Wow, man. What would've I done without you? =) Thanks for dealing with me...being the in-between person...and worrying even though you have SO much to do. I don't mean to drag you here and there and over and under...(does that sound wrong?) But you came anyway...you offered and you followed. Never once did you judge me. Never once did you turn your back to me and wanted to leave. You sat there, every morning, listening to my complains...my nervousness, my fear, and my sorrow. But you know what? =) I'd do the same for you...
Amista.: Even from the distance, you knew everything. You understood. I would've so not made it out sane without your calls...your persistent words of encouragement... your love and care. Thanks for being patient... hugging instead of yelling... explaining instead of scolding. Thanks for propping me up so i wouldn't hit the ground...even when I stumbled. Even when the whole world thought I went insane, you smiled and called me normal...well, actually...you called me weird, but that's as normal I'm gonna get anyway. =) I'm here too...you know that, of course... don't ever feel bad about telling anything... because you know I dont ever stop complaining and whining to you. So...thanks, girlie...really. See? Distance hasn't driven us apart. And it won't.
Dongseng.: =) Dooonnggseennng....technically, it's still your bday week...so I just wanted to say: HAPPY BIRFFDAY BABES! =) Thanks for not only supporting me, but Ben. I know it was so hard to for you balance. I know how difficult it was. =/ Sorry for the guilty nights and sad mornings. You know I can take care of myself. Look...I want you to care about yourself, okay? Stop worrying about others...it's time Christine takes time out for Christine... Get to know yourself again...Don't worry...I won't fall...you know that. =) I'm so lucky to have a dongseng like you...but loves so much and gives the world, but asks for nothing in return. Your unnie's just a call away too...remember that...
As for everyone else involved... sorry and thanks. =) I'll try to not make any more drama. Did I forget anyone? If I did...I'm sorry...It's been a hella long month, ya noe.

This song is dedicated to someone because of this event. It sorta represents how I feel. It originally was dedicated to someone else in my heart... and it still is. You know who you are. Just thought it kinda applies to this situation too, y'know? Alright thanks..i'm out. The Reason
I'm not a perfect person There's many things I wish I didn't do But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new And the reason is you I'm sorry that I hurt you It's something I must live with everyday And all the pain I put you through I wish that I could take it all away And be the one who catches all your tears Thats why i need you to hear I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new And the reason is You [x4] I'm not a perfect person I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new And the reason is you I've found a reason to show A side of me you didn't know A reason for all that I do And the reason is you

Sunday, September 26, 2004

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 21:46:16 GMT
people are saying I don't update (*coughcough*ben*coughcough*,) so I'm taking the time outta mai free, relaxful sunday to update. u noe what? i havent done quiz results in a awhile...haha...u'all ready foh this? (yes, yes, for ppl who takes the faithful time to read my xanga entries, [jeff, sarah, ames, tee, etc] u're all tired of this by now, arentcha?)

Demure Flirt
What Kind of FLIRT are you?

Jessica Rabbit
Who 's Your Inner Sexy Cartoon Chick ?

Everyone thinks he's a bad person, that he has no
heart and that he couldn't love or ever be
loved. Well, you just proved those ignorants
wrong. This dude would go thirty times around
the earth if you would ask him to. A person who
threatens you must really have a death wish.
What's your dream boyfriend?

You represent... angst.
What emotion do you represent?

You are Wolverine! A loner by nature, you feel uncomfortable when
around those you don't know and even those you
do. You are awkward when it comes to
relationships, but fiercely loyal to those you
love.
Which X-Men character are you most like?

What Is Your Animal Personality?

You're a red lacy bra, Romantic, sexy, seductive, and tempting.
What type of bra are you?

All quizes are brought to you by Quizilla

Saturday, September 18, 2004

Sat, 18 Sep 2004 19:56:06 GMT
Okiez...sorry about the last post people, that was a false alarm...thanks to someone. -_-;;; *glares at chu* baka. anywayz....now I'm offically back on xanga...sorta...might not have much time to update. =) Anywayz...
Girl's volleyball arent doing so well.....-.O dudes...we need support!!!!!! >.O okiez...what else? Not much update. School is nice. Everything's good. WELCOME BACK AMES <-- this time...it's for real. -_-
can't wait to play George's team on the eigthteenth...we're gonna cream ure ass George! ha...right..-_-;; no we're not... lol...Okiez...datz a bit down...GOO EAGLEZ.

Saturday, August 21, 2004

Sat, 21 Aug 2004 01:36:13 GMT
Okay...^^ Two things, just two...and sorry for not updating foh awhile...BLAME IT ON AMISTA...lol XD...^^;;
WELCOME BACK TO...
x3___Amista.: Great to have you back on the cyberworld...we've missed you! ^^;; Thanks for everything girl. And I'll bet your new computer is...spppllennndiiiddd (<-- Nah...it doesn't have the same ring to it...)
x3___Georgie.: So glad you're back!!! Thankiez foh bringing me mai music!!!! ^^ *huggles* good to have you back too! Hopefully I'll see ya Sunday! (are you good at spiking by any chance?)
Okies, I guess that's all foh now. Yes I'm a boring picture...and I'm pissed at my xanga...mai xanga don't work, I can't find another copy of my profile pic...(wasn't it awesone by the way) and...anyone like my new look? (on xanga) Well, still under maintainence....and no, Amista, I don't need ure help...;P (I know you're gonna ask meh later..lol) Okies...luv ya alll...OH...one more thing...
This message is actually foh my new friend, who took the time out of her life to brighten someone else's day. The world need more people like you...we really do. Don't change. I just met you, I don't know you...but I feel a click...well, as long as you're not a forty-five year old pycho. =) Actually, if you were, I wouldn't care either...lol... you know who are are, at least i hope you do. I'm even sure if you'll come to this page. But thank you. From the deepest part of my heart.